My dad received his M.D. from Temple University School of
Medicine in 1931. He died suddenly,
though I now realize from the perspective of time, not unexpectedly, in July
1974. I was in the last two weeks of my
junior year at the same medical school.
(Though irrelevant to everything that will follow, I can never express
my gratitude to two late deans at Temple Medical, M. Prince Brigham and Hugo
Smith, for the kindness and compassion they extended in allowing me to take the
surgery final, scheduled the week of dad's funeral, when I felt ready to take
it, and for considering my six-week internal medicine rotation complete after
the four weeks I'd already finished.).
Dad's death and the timing of that death was a wound that
took several years to heal. Eventually,
like other wounds, it scarred over. Were
you to look at my soul today you could still see the scar. It occasionally gets
a bit inflamed. That inflammation is not
something to fight against but rather to be gently rubbed, acknowledged, and
soothed. It was a hard-won scar on both
dad's and my parts.
As we were planning the funeral I wanted, indeed, had to
have, a copy of the Hippocratic Oath next to the crucifix in his coffin. Dr. Steve Wartella, a radiologist and
tremendously kind man, was very helpful getting a copy in those days before computers
made it easy to find and print a copy suitable for framing. It was held in a brown fake wood frame from
Woolworths. That copy of the oath, in the same $7.57 (plus tax) frame, has hung
in my apartment, office, or room ever since.
At the moment it is packed in a box at Campion Center along with the
rest of my stuff. Should I return to
Slovenia I will ship it over. It meant a
lot then. It means even more today.
All of this was triggered by an item from the Catholic News
Service that popped up on facebook. The
headline is: Cardinal Dolan urges
stronger effort to stop physician assisted suicide.
http://www.usccb.org/issues-and-action/human-life-and-dignity/assisted-suicide/to-live-each-day/upload/to-live-each-day-with-dignity-hyperlinked.pdf
Dolan makes an important point that I hadn't
considered. "The legalization
of doctor-assisted suicide creates two classes of people: those whose suicides
are to be prevented at any cost, and those whose suicides are deemed a positive
good." In an American society that has
become extremely hypersensitive to 'isms', 'ists', a panoply of 'phobias' and
in general insists on pounding any round peg possible into a square hole of
discrimination, this seems to be a widely ignored thought. The cardinal described the situation well, “We remove weapons and drugs
that can cause harm to one group, while handing deadly drugs to the other,
setting up yet another kind of life-threatening discrimination . . . ”
The Oath Attributed to Hippocrates has a long
history. It was never universally
accepted by physicians, even in ancient times.
While reading some history of medicine a few years ago I learned that
not all physicians took or abided by the oath.
The ones who did were deemed "Hippocratic Physicians." By now, however, the "Hippocratic
Oath" has become traditional at medical schools, generally upon entering
and at graduation. The question is
whether the bowdlerized oath means anything at all today. Should it even be called The Hippocratic Oath
or perhaps changed to something like, "The Doctor's Promise" or
"The Medical Code Based on Hippa and Medicaid?" I was stunned when
the "oath" we pronounced less than a year after dad's death bore no
resemblance whatsoever to the copy in dad's coffin. I cannot recall the exact words in the
graduation program which, like the framed oath, is in a box at Campion. I do recall searing disappointment that we
pronounced what seemed at best a pseudo-oath.
There are now many versions, none of which seem to include
a proscription against killing a patient, none of which include forbidding
abortion, and most of which no longer caution against having sex with a patient
or member of the patient's household as did the original oath quoted as
follows, "Neither will I administer a poison to anybody
when asked to do so, nor will I suggest such a course. Similarly I will not
give to a woman a pessary to cause abortion. But I will keep pure and holy both
my life and my art. . . . I will abstain from all intentional wrong-doing and
harm, especially from abusing the bodies of man or woman, bond or free."
Cardinal Dolan notes that, rather than being abandoned to the ease
of being killed by a lethal combination of drugs or poisons, the dying require
care. They require intense symptomatic
management. They must be assured that
they are not a burden or a bother. What
Dolan and many others call for is not easy.
Almost forty years practicing first internal medicine (fourteen years)
and then geriatric psychiatry (twenty-six years) allow me to say that it is not
easy by a long shot. It requires
compassion (from the root words for 'to suffer with'), it requires physical and
emotional stamina on the part of the physician who is confronting his own
mortality every time he enters the patient's room or, ideally sometimes the
patient's home. It requires a very
certain and detailed knowledge of physiology, pathology, and pharmacology, not
just good intentions and a few prescribing trees that instruct "if this
then this." Care for the dying
demands knowing the patient as a living being.
Perhaps it is this last part, knowing the patient, that is being
destroyed in American medicine.
Six months after dad's death I began a cardiology rotation. The name of the hospital is irrelevant. I was assigned to a group of six or seven
cardiologists. They were excellent at
what they did. And they were very nice
guys who treated me well. My qualm was
how they practiced and made rounds.
Every morning I walked into a patient's room with a different doc. The dialogue went something like this,
"I'm Dr. Harrison. You don't know
me but I work with Dr. Miller who admitted you.
He told me all about you."
The following day Dr. Wilson repeated the same things mentioning both
Harrison and Miller. Eventually during
the recitation of four or five names who handed off the patient, I realized I
was the only consistent presence in the patient's room all week. I swore I would never do that to my
patients.
Caring for the dying is physically, emotionally, and spiritually
demanding. It is exhausting work.
Sitting at the bedside of a twenty-something year-old patient as he
approached an unpreventable death from devastating and terminal heart-lung
disease, I screamed "WHY?" at God, a prayer that was greeted with
silence at the moment. Despite his
physical struggle to breathe and the wracking coughs that brought up dark red blood
clots, I never had the thought to kill him in the name of compassion and
relieving his suffering. God knows it
would have been easy enough with a slight adjustment of medication. He got through that awful crisis. When he did die a few weeks later he was
home. Watching a football game. That angry WHYYYYY? hurled at God was
answered.
The question behind Cardinal Dolan's talk is whether physicians are
willing to do the hard work needed. Are
they willing to be compassionate, to "suffer with" in down and dirty
fashion? Are they willing to stay when they desperately
want to flee the room or punch a wall?
Are they willing to be what they think to be an ineffective presence
(presence is never ineffective) seeming unable to do anything to relieve the
suffering? Would they rather be in a bioethics
seminar room making pronouncements about short-circuiting suffering rather than
fighting sleep at 3:00 AM while sitting in a chair next to the bed, perhaps
scared out of their minds?
In 1977 I had the immense privilege, a life-changing privilege, of
working as a house officer for six weeks under Dr. Cicely Saunders at St.
Christopher's Hospice in London. One day,
in my uncomprehending youthful state, I asked what she thought about what was
then called "euthanasia" assuming agreement. Dr. Saunders was a tall
woman. She crossed her arms under her
ample bosom, made herself even taller, her halo of white hair like a cloud
above me, and almost thundered her response.
It was not pretty. Her philosophy
was that pain could always be controlled.
It wasn't always easy or without risk but it could always be
controlled. Killing a patient was never
the answer. That is quite a difference
from the Dutch who are considering physician assisted suicide for those who are
simply tired of living.
Another of Cardinal Dolan's remarks is a fitting end to these
thoughts, “Patients
need our assurance that they are not a burden — that it is a privilege to care
for them as we ourselves hope to be cared for one day. A compassionate society
devotes more attention, not less, to members facing the most vulnerable times
in their lives.”
The above thoughts were triggered by something that popped up on facebook (yes, I had to bite the bullet). Scary, especially the Dutch and/or Beligans who are thinking of allowing those who are simply tired of living rather than terminally ill, be administered "physician assisted suicide." Ditto for Alzheimer's patients who didn't request it. Obviously given at the behest of the family or the physician ('the inheritance is going to run out' or 'I need a bed on Monday').
Attached are a few more photos from Piran. Sunday morning Robert took me up to St. George's Church, bell tower, and baptistry, each of which is a separate structure. There was sun.
Robert checking out the catch with two fishermen.
Morning fog is rare in Piran. This was one of those rare days.
Forty minutes earlier we sat under the white canopy at the upper left corner of the square with coffee and croissant.
The pink house in the corner of Tartinijev trg is 'the Venetian House.'
Heading to the boats with coffee
+Fr. Jack, SJ, MD
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